Hey its actually me!

Hey everyone, its Sam. I thought I'd write a little something something on here myself while I'm feeling up to it. My dad has been super sweet and awesome to do all those updates, but I was just thinking if I was something else I'd think.. uh oh.. sam can't even write on the blog... and she LOVES her mac. My dad was deffinitly on with everything he was saying.
In all honesty, the first 2 days here were real rough. They just didn't really figure out what to give me when and how much and everything to control my nausea and pain. But my awesome doc finally took charge and boosted me up with pleeeenty of diloded (sp?) and made sure that i was on more frequent anti-nausea medicines. Then i finally stopped getting sick for the first time since i got home, so my esophogas is finally starting to be able to heal from all the icky stomach acids that have been workin at it.
A problem I've had here though is my breathing, I've been on oxygen the whole time. Yesterday the docs thought that maybe some of the IV fluids leaked into my lungs (this can happen when you get a ton of IV fluids) and it was causing me to have shortness of breath. This to me sounded bad and I was all worried but apparantely they can give you this one medicine that makes you pee it out. I'm still confused how you pee out your lungs, but I guess that's besides the point. So they gave me that which made me pee very often and a lot (too much info probly) but I was still having some shortness of breath. They keep taking chest x-rays after they try different things to hopefully figure out whats going on with that. Just this morning one of my buddy resident docs here said its possible the fluid could have leaked lower down, which would just be another type of medicine to try and get it out again.
Last night on new years eve my parents came up which was so super sweet, 'cause I know the hospital is not the coolest place to be for that. I had my mom shave my head finally too. Don't worry, I'm not upset about this at all or sad, I was so ready for her to get her; who wants hair falling out everywhere yeck gross. So we shaved my head and i took and nice shower so I was disconnected from all cords for an hour and it felt so great I was moving around feeling awesome for a while until my body realized I haven't done that in about 3 weeks and I had to lay back down haha. I have been told by the nurses I got the demi moore look going on, so watch out, you might see shaved heads on girls everywhere soon, I'm kinda a trend starter. I'll be able to leave the hospital within the next few days hopefully, I have to be able to breathe normally,get my fevers down (its been fluctuating mostly between 100-102.5 while here) and eat basically. The nausea is under control for me now, but chemo causes you to get sores in your mouth, so you dont even really try to eat 'cause it doesn't work out. I know- sam- not eating? whaaaaat? I tell you this cancer does odd things to me.
This was an extremely long ramble (not as bad as in person when im on diloded I NEVER shut up) but I figure I would give some info right from the source here while I'm feeling up to it. I'm actually feeling totally fine this morning but my oxygen levels keep dropping which is a concern so we're working on that. The machine that beeps when my count drops will haunt me in my dreams forever because it is the loudest most obnoxious beep ever and doesn't stop until I either manage to get enough oxygen in me or the nurse comes and pushes the button. I guess this rambling needs to come to and end at some point so I'll leave you with two funny things that happened this morning:
#1.So we shaved my head last night, and I slept a decent amount through the night and when i had to go to the bathroom I push the button for the nurse and she helps me move the IV pole and all the tubes and all and when I got into the bathroom I was facing the toilet walking in and when i turned around and caught a look at myself in the mirror I made a weird noise and kinda jumped b/c i had totally forgotten I had no hair. It was pretty funny and gave myself and my nurse a good laugh.
#2. I went for a chest x-ray this morning and when they move me around the hospital i get wheeled in a nice chair and have to wear a mask 'cause no germies for me. I got to see a bunch of nurses at their station i was able to say hi to on the way and they could hear me talk, but other people in the hospital I didn't know I would just smile at you know, and nobody was smiling back and I was like man.. these people are rough. When we got down to the x-ray place the x-ray...tician...? was on the other side of the room and i gave her a huge smile with no return. I finally started laughing because i realized OMG DUH nobody can see i'm smiling at them I'm wearing a mask you idiot. The lady who was pushing me around got a kick out of that too.
Okay Sorry I wrote so very much I don't blame you if you used the 'skim' method I just thought I'd give you the update straight from me while I can. My dad's entries are a lot better, but gotta admit mine are kinda funnier (sorry dad). But I'm thankful he was writing them for me when I was not able. Thanks Daddy! Also thanks to everyone for the constant support it really means so much to me and keeps me going. We are on the road to killin this thing!!

lots of love, Sammy