Monday, November 5, 2007

My Blog!!

Hey family and friends! So I decided to make a blog just to make everything convenient for you guys and for me. I know if I was you guys I would want to know whats going on of course but not wanna bug me.. and for me I want everyone to know whats going on, but it gets tiring telling 8 billion ( i have a lot of friends) people a day. So i figure this was good for both of us! You can see whats up, and I don't have to tell as many stories. I dont want this to be a 'feel bad for me' blog, so it will be filled with lots of stuff that might be inappropriate humor at times to make me/you laugh, but if you know me then you would have already known that was coming.

I figure I should keep everyone posted from the beginning so here's whats been going on:

-about a month ago I had pains in my stomach and went to student health. She told me I had heartburn. She was only a little off considering it was cancer. Maybe I should be a doctor when I grow up

-Last Saturday I came home and had my first catscan! MEOW! It was an interesting experience. I got to wake up at 5 am and drink make-your-organs-glow shake. Then when i was there he injected into my arm something or other and told me it would feel warm all over. He also warned me it might feel like i was peeing. I should have taken him more seriously becuase when i thought I was peeing my pants I was clenching for all I was worth thinking, 'dont pee dont pee dont pee!'

-Monday was a bit of a scary day, my parents came to school and picked me up after they heard the knews that i had abnormal growths going on, but I didn't know yet. So they got to come and see mine and Alex's apartment after we hid all illegal drugs, alcohol, boys/strippers, porn, and our pet shark. Alex and I somehow managed to get in a fist fight, but we later decided she was just 'punching the cancer out of me'

-Tuesday I had a meeting at the cancer center. This was all really weird and scary. The word cancer at 19 is just pretty... weird. He explained that they think I have cancer, but we have to get a biopsy done to get it checked out. This day was also important because I got on a bit of a closer relationship with my doctor. Warning: slightly innapropriate story ahead..
*So I was lying on the table for him to do a little exam of me and my hand was gripping the side of the table instead of on top, not sure why. So when he leaned in to start doing his exam i realized my hand was in not such a good place. But I couldn't pull my hand back b/c that would have been akward, b/c I didn't think he realized what was going on, and I didn't want to injure anything. So as he was getting close and checking out my situation I was just thinking in my head.. you know what.. this isn't even bad. Becuase he's got me.. I got him. It's fair. I was also thinking.. man.. why do WEIRD things happen to me?? Don't worry, he's not a creep he didn't know my hand was there I dont think, just fyi. But that's how I decided we already are started on a close relationship.

I wanted to get away for a night, so I went and drove to Purdue to see Taylor. I made a nice trip to Wendy's and pigged out on the dollar menu. I figured hey.. i had a hard day.

-Thursday morning had my biopsy. YUCK! sidenote: if you dont like needles, avoid the biopsy. I was awake but heavily sedated fortunately. Also- for people like my roomie Hillary if you're thinking about being a nurse, think about appropriate times to ask questions. When we were in the room with my parents and the nurse was prepping me she asked if I was pregnant or any possibilty I might be. I was just thinking, well THAT would be good timing to let mom and dad know. The biopsy took not too long, and I was in lala land, but we had to stay a few hours at the hospital afterwards to make sure I was good as.. new..kinda. Then i got to come home and veg on the couch all day (not complaining)

-We were hoping for results on Friday becuase we had a meeting with Dr. Dragon. It was a long day just waiting to hear exactly what it was and it was dissapointing to hear that they still didn't know. What we were told on friday was it was for sure that I have cancer, but they're not sure what kind. They said they would be sending it out for more testing, and I would have to wait longer to find out.

-That weekend was a good weekend considering what was going on. Tay came home, and Ness and Carly surprised me and came home too :) I was super thankful, because it really took a lot off my mind to be able to hang out with them for a few days. It's so comforting knowing what amazing support I have, not just from them but from everyone. On that note- I found out that a priest said a mass for me in mountains north of Thailand. Talk about connections!!

-It's now Monday and we were hoping to hear some news, but they said they still don't know. So far we know that its not lymphoma, and its most likely something very rare. The wait is pretty agonizing but I'm hoping to find out early this week what is going on. They said theres a possiblity they might admit me to University of Chicago Hopsital for more procedures to be done to figure out what this is. As much as I dont want to do that, I'm ready to find out what this is, so I can start kicking its ass.

So that's where we are as of now. Probably not much information that you didn't know already, but hopefully it gives you an idea of where I'm at. I know I made lots of jokes and it seemed funny, but don't think im not taking this seriously. I just didn't want to make a page of depressing information in a sort of whiny sort of way, it's just not really my thing. After this will probably not be such silly stories, but as of now I'm keeping my positive attitude and theres NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT! I will try to keep this updated with info. when I know exactly what they're diagnosing me with. Until then, thanks for all the support I've gotten already, it really means a lot!

18 comments:

Stephie said...

sam, i think you are gonna look really hot without hair. like seriously. i am imagining it now. anyway, hey, i love you. can i have your address so i can mail myself to you? xo, stephie!

M. said...

Sam,
You are one tough cookie and I loved reading your blog. You have the best attitude and that will help you beat this!
Besides the wigs, I think you'll look great in a scarf. I'll buy you one. I love you!

Missy

hillary said...

hahah! i love this! and i think that me and alex got your hair right the second time. blonde with blue highlights is def your new look! :) love you!

Anonymous said...

Sam

"Hang in there" kiddo! Life can deliver unexpected challenges, at times. I firmly believe attitude can really make a difference.

Looking forward to having you & friends at the boat (more than once)next summer!

Lara said...

Hey Sammy-
Have I mentioned you are the COOLEST person I know? And that was before you had your very own BLOG! As for the hair, NBD. You can totally pull off hats and caps...you can start a "sammy" fashion trend!
Thanks so much for starting this blog- you're right - we all want to support you and love you, but not annoy you either. Now start kicking some serious butt, OK? I love you!
Lara

Uncle Mike said...

Sam, thanks for using this to keep us all updated. we certainly want to respect your privacy yet we are very concerned as well. May i suggest that you treat this illness like you treated me on the foosball table. the illness would have no chance. keep your positive attitude until we beat this thing. We all have you in all our thoughts and prayers. You are the ideal role model and a true Icon. You have all our love and support. You also have my foosball title, which i will be looking to take back someday. Stay strong, Uncle Mike and family.

Uncle Mikey said...

Sammy,
Great idea, and great humorous attitude. I've tried leaving this message twice before. It's tough for an old dog to learn new tricks.

Becky said...

Hey Samster!
Hang in there, I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about ya everyday now, along with everyone else. I wanted to send you a card, but I figured you've probably got stacks of them because I know how many people love and care for you!

But enough with that- I agree with you, lets find out what this crap is and get it out of you! In the mean time... I will make many bird calls in your name, break some fences... you know the sorts of things that Im known for doing lol. ;)

Love,
Beckster

Uncle Mikey said...

Aunt Amy wanted to leave a comment but couldn't figure it out, HA!

And I thought I was an old dog!

Aunt Amy said...

Okay, so I am tecnologically challenged. Uncle Mikey can go stick it up his *!*!*

I say, go for the pup!....WAY TOO cute!

Sammy, thanks for the blog...it helps me keep in touch even from the wilds of Ohio. I'm with you, gal!

Cora said...

Hi Sam!! Well this whole blog thing was such a wonderful idea!! First off I think that blonde wig is a MUST along with a cute little puppy:)...You really are such an amazing person someone we should all be looking up too! With yourattitude I am confident you can overcome anything that gets in your way! you have even inspired me to be more positive about life everyday:) I want you to know that your in everyones prayers everyday and that we all love you!-but you know that:)

Love,
Cora

Anna said...

Sam,
Sadie's right...blondes do have more fun...so maybe you should reconsider that blonde hair!! I'm really sorry to hear about everything that's going on with you, but after reading this I'm so confident that everythings going to be ok. Your hilarious and I totally love your optimism! Your in my thoughts everyday lady!!!
Love,
Cousin Anna

Bonnie M. said...

Sam~
Great idea for the blog...you should be thankful for the wonderful advancements in technology! If you think about it, prior to using 'blogs'to communicate, people were always saying 'I should just walk around with a note on my shirt.' You have a great spirit and truly are one tuff cookie!

On a side note...I am a bit worried about this relationship with your doctor...you and your sister seem to get into some precarious situations with people working in the medical field...I hope he is nothing like the dentist :)

vode-a said...

Sam, knowing your kick-butt roller hockey skills, I'm confident you are going to "take this to the net." Regardless, don't go blonde. . . it's not you!! I'm rooting for you in Georgia. Come and visit if you really want to get away.

-(Ms. Voorhies) Andrea

Allan said...

I like your new puppy. And, I like the way you write. I used to teach a technical writing course, among other things. I'm your great-uncle Allan

Allan

Marissa said...

Hey Sam,

It's Marissa-the medical student who used to bug you all the time in Comer. I'm back home in Miami for a few days and was hoping to stop by and say hi. Let me know if that would be ok. TTYL. mari13ster@gmail.com

Tricia said...

Here is an article about all the awesome things people down at U of I are doing to help Sammy!

http://www.dailyillini.com/home/index.cfm?event=displayArticle&uStory_id=e9bb7691-a386-443a-8dba-74edb63a5782

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